I’ll be honest with you this is my first time writing this first post, in fact its not even me fourth or fifth! I’m stuck in an eternal loop every time I fight back I get pushed further and further away from my goal! My life has not been the best for the past 6 years, nothing to do with anyone else purely my own fault, and now as I near adult hood I realize just how much I have thrown away of my life and how terribly sorry I am that I wasted so much time in figuring this out. I do not however regret anything I have learnt so much and come so far, at first this post may sound cryptic but my tale will be told over the next year and you will understand eventually.